Aarrgghh.. Stress melampau..

Bile sume nk cr mgse tuk dislhkn.. Akhirnyer, ak la yg kne.. Kn.. Ni la tester.. Nk wat cne.. Redha je r..

I do believe this is the best solution..

Hr sabtu, 22/5..

Akhirnye.. konvo jge ak.. Walopn lewt drpd yg septtnyer.. Drpd rmh lg, jntg dh brdbr.. Tgn mggeletar bgai nk rak.. (Ak rse sume pn pasan bab tgn tuh).. Hr yg di2nggu2 slame 3 thn 1/2 smpai jue..

Dlm dewn cbe utk mmberi tumpuan (Yeker? Bkn ke cbuk brgmbr).. Time ambik scroll.. Control giler time jln.. Ye r.. Bkn slaloo nek pnts DSB tuh.. 1st n last la kot.. (InsyaAllah kalo ambik master kt ctu, bkn last la) Tgh control2.. time trn tangge abg urusetia ckp ak jln laju sgt.. (Mujur gmbr ok.. Kalo x.. Xtaula)..

Hbs jerk.. Ktrg sume disrh nek atas.. Ak nek gak la.. Trpakse.. Dlm pd tuh, jenguk2 gak.. Kot la trnmpk org yg dikenali.. Sampai ats, ayah call..

"Min ktne? Ktrg tunggu dpn dsb nih.. Kt carpet mrh"
"Min kt dpn ptar 1 nih.. Jap gi min trun"

Dlm hati ak trtunggu2 gak.. Npela is xmsg2 ak.. Die bgtau nk dtg time konvo nih.. Die nk bwk adik die skali.. Tp sampai skrg pn xdgr khabr brite.. Ak mls la nk msg die.. Kot die busy ke.. Xnk la kaco..

Trun2.. Org prtame yg ak nmpk, ummi ngn ayah ak.. Mule2 xprsn.. Tgk2 rupe2nyer, mak sedare, bp sedare pn de.. Sepupu2 ak pn.. Ramai giler.. Kakak n abg ak hrsla de skali.. First time rse sonok giler.. Sume org gather tuk tgk ak konvo.. Hrsla sonok kn.. Borak2 xsdr dh sampai bintg.. Benti ambik gmbr.. Yg lawaknyer, sume nk ak pgg bunge dorg.. Kalo 1 2 xpela.. Pening abg cameraman tuh.. Sian die..

Lps tuh, ktrg rmai2 gi mkn.. Pak Uda banje.. Diam2 ak fikir2 gak.. Npela sampai skrg is xcontact2 ak.. Busy kot.. Xpela..

Smlm, Ahad, 23/5..

Pg2 is call ak.. Ajak bekfes ktenyer.. Ak siap2 la.. Dlm pd tuh msh trty2 npe die xdtg.. Time ak trn die tgh bork2 ngn ayah ak.. Xtaula dorg borak psl pe..

"U konvo smlm ke?? Pakcik bgtau td.. Sori, I xtringt lgsg.."

Tu ayat yg kuar drpd mulut die.. Pttla die xmsg, xcall.. Die xtau pn ak konvo hr sabtu tuh rupenyer.. Niat mmg nk nek blek semule jerk.. Tp sbb ayah de.. Ak turun gak la.. Xde pape yg kuar drpd mulut ak.. Ak cume senyum jerk.. Spy ayah xbau pape2..

Kt luar..
"I xle lme nih.. Nnti nk kne gi s.a hntr jubh.."
Tu la ayat yg kuar drpd mulut ak.. Hati ak jd sakit.. Xtaula npe.. Mungkin sbb ak fikir, sedare ak kt johor pn dtg, die kt puchong yg xdtg.. Sedih gak la sbnrnyer..

"La.. Xkn sbb bnde kecik cmni pn u nk mrh.. I xsengaje.. Yg u xcontact I npe?? Byk bnde yg I kne ingt.. Bkn konvo u jerk.."

Bnde kecik.. Mungkin pd die.. Tp bkn ak.. Nth2 ni la last ak konvo.. Kt bkn th pe yg akn jd akn dtg.. Toll x?? Yela, mungkin mmg slh ak sbb xinform die lgsg..

Is bkk pintu kete..
"I xlapr la.. Lenkali la kte gi.. Sori.."
Ak jln ke arh gate..
"U nk I watpe?? Bru u puas hati?? I xsengaje.. Xkn tu pn u xfhm.. Dh brp lme u knl I?? Pe yg u nk?? Cbe u ckp.."
"Xde pe.. I xlapr.. 2 je.. I msk dulu.."

Ak xtau pe yg akn jd kalo ak trus stay kt ctu.. Ak kalo bleh xnk parents ak tau.. Korg fhm mksd ak kn..

"ina, ikut I.. Kte settlekn bnde nih.. Lps tuh, I hntr u blek.. U hntr jubh tuh kul brp?"
"11.30.."
"Smpt.. Msk je.."

Ahad, 11.15 pg...

Sampai kt pdg jawe.. Ak melamun jap..

"If u think that's the best thing for us.. Ok.."

Prkataan tuh msh tngiang2 lg kt telinge ak.. Ye, ak yg decide.. N ak rse that's for the best.. Mungkin sbb ktrg dh knl trlalu lme, bnde cmni le jd.. Mybe nila msenyer tuk nilai blek.. Existence msg2.. Tetibe tin-chan call.. Die dh sampai rupenyer.. Huhuhu.. Xsdr pn..

Ahad, 3.30 ptg..

Sampai2 je rmh.. Ummi ty..
"Pe yg jd?? Korg gado ke??"

Ak diam.. Senyum trpakse..
"Min nek lu la mi.. De bnde nk kne wat.."

Sbnrnyer ak nk mengelak.. Ak th pe yg akn ummi ty.. Pe yg ak bleh ktekn.. Ak prlukn mse.. Tu jerk.. Utk nilai blek prkatan "Farina" itu.. Kdg2 ak trfikir.. Pe jd kalo ak diamkn jerk bnde tuh.. Tp sampai bile plak.. Hhmm.. Org kte, kte slalu takes things for granted bile bnde tuh sntiase ngn kte.. Mybe de baiknyer jgk bnde cmni jd..

* Gile lme nk wat post nih.. Copy paste pn mkn mse tau.. Huhuhu.. Tula.. Nila yg jdk kalo gune intrnt subsidi.. Huhuhu.. Kla, nk smbg wat db jap.. Untg2 le blek awl.. Ja..

Bnde nk jd..

Pg nih, sedr2 dh lmbt.. Wat prtame kalinyer.. Mlm td mmg dh cdg nk gi lmbt pn.. Tp xla jgke trbgn lmbt.. Tu 1 hal..

Lg sket nk smpai tol ke-2, eksiden plak.. Ngn naza plak tuh.. Bengg gak la.. Mujur die nk byr.. Tp xbyk.. Ak pn, yg dh lmbt nih.. Trime jerk.. Kg lmbt plak sampai ofis.. Org len plak yg bising..

Lately nih rse cm duit kurg ckp la.. Xtau npe.. Ke mne la peginyer duit ak nih agaknyer..

Ni nk gune tuk repair, road tax, insurans.. Kalo jd gi jimbe hujg bln, nk kne gi servis kete lu.. Hhmm.. Dgn mcm2 nk beli lg...

Gambare!!!

Frustrated..

Rse frust sgt ngn diri sndiri.. Task yg simple pn xle nk settle kn.. Sampai org len kne tolong.. (Dorg pn de byk bnde nk wat gak)..

Hari2 complain kt ummi.. Hari2 kte nk benti.. (Tp xbenti2 gak kn.. Sampai skrg.. Ckp jerk lebih..)
Awal2 lg md dh inform.. Kt cni kne wat multi-tasking.. Kne handle mcm2.. Yg nk complain tuh npe.. Sndiri yg pilih nk keje kt cni.. Xde spe2 pn pakse.. Xde spe2 ltk pisau kt leher pn kn.. Sndiri yg gatal.. Lps tuh, sndiri gak yg xpuas hati.. Cne??

ps: Tetibe trminat plak lagu 'masih terserlah ayumu'.. Npe skrg ek??

Gome!!

I am way too busy to update this thingy.. Not just this guy.. Others too..
Maybe.. after finish Mimos only then I updated them.. Ok??

*Not being emo but too stressed lately.. Gomenasai.. Nway, I miss my storm!!!!

Alhamdulillah...

Ak bru lps performance review.. Alhamdulillah.. Everything goes well..
Some good comments..
Some not..
Well, I'm still in learning state.. Need to improve a lot.. N fast..

Hr ni rupe2nyer hr last bg choke n mk.. So, dorg gi celeb lunch nih.. Kt avenue K... Chinese restaurant but halal.. At first.. Since they thought I'm joining in.. But lots of thing to do (Yeker???) N prefering to 'tapau' make me said no.. Hhmm.. Sorry guys.. Really appreciate it though..

Mimos nih.. kalo brjln lancar.. Will be finished by the end of the week.. Hopefully.. Dh lme giler ngadap bnde nih.. Cm dh xsggup pn de.. But work is work ne.. My responsibility.. Kla, nk smbg bce e-book jap.. Nk cpt2 certified.. Untung2 dpt nek gaji.. Huhuhu..

Ja n salam..