T_T

I need some timeout..
Allow me to breath for 1 sec..

I don't feel alive anymore lately..
Previously, used to hang out wit friends, cousins..
Now??
I hang out with either my laptop at home or pc in the office..
Work 24/7..
Non-stop..
Min, gambare!!!

To many things to do..
To many things to absorb..
To much to handle at a time..
The question is..
Can I do it??
Can I perform it successfully??

It's hard to fulfill everyone needs..
This person wants this.. That person wants that..
But, how about what I want?
Yeah2x.. Who am I to say anything.. I'm in no position to say NO right..

Everyone is leaving..
I myself thought of that for quite some time..
Shall I gave up?? Shall I choose a different path??
But the main point is, what's the best path for me??
I don't really see it now..
I can't imagine it too..

But the thing is..
Staying here is hard..
Doing something I don't like..
Can I perform well with it??
So far, not even close..
I hate every second I spend on this project..
But, like I said..
I'm in no position to say NO..

Should have took the offer..
Well, who knows things turn out this way..
She promises me I'll do what I like and do best next year..
But now, I don't think I can even smell it..
It's way to far to be reached..
Hhhmm..
Nothing can be done about it now..
No use to be regretting it..

So, what now??

1. Focus on what I have to do..
What's past is past..
I need to struggle on my future..
Because that's what matters..

2. I LOVE MY JOB.. I LOVE THIS PROJECT.. I LOVE THIS COMPANY!!!
I always say that when I wake up to go to work..
Hopefully, I will eventually like what I do now..
At least in the mean time..
Until I found the best path for me..
Not that I'm not thinking about that now..
Yeah, u can always find another workplace, but will u be able to get what u want when u get there?
Can u really guarantee that??
R u really confident that that company is way better than this one?
U can't, right..
That's the thing..
Been there myself.. Thinking working as a programmer is tough..
Now is even tougher..

GAMBARE!!!

Nothing is simple..

Kalo rse diri ni ssh..
Org len lg ssh..
Kalo rse diri ni stress..
Org len lg stress..
Kalo rse diri ni busy, ssh nk jenguk rmh..
Org len lg busy..

Min, tbh.. Tu jerk yg bleh wat skrg nih..
Kalo rse nk brsungut mcm semut yg de sesungut tuh..
Ingt jerk.. Pe yg ko rse, org len rse lbh lg.. De org yg lg trok drpd tuh.. GAMBARE!!!

ps : 2 more coming in.. Finally, I'm not the only one here.. Here?? Will I be here forever??

Npe la ek??

Firstly..
Yg ak plg xfhm..
Npe ak yg kne bsuh??
Sdgkn ak xwat papepn..
Xckp ngn TM, PM.. GM pn bsuh ak gak..
Mujur bkn MD kn..
Ak, kalo MD pggl.. Atr due jerk.. Tu yg wat cuak thp dewe tuh..

Bru seminggu kkk tuh msk..
Another malay..
Yay!!!
Yela, lg sorg tuh bru jerk benti..
Ni dpt lg sorg..
Mestila hepi kn..
Wat peneman dikale sepi..

Tup2..
Xde angin, xde ribut..
Ak kne pggl ngn TM ak..
Small discussion kte die..
Tp, mmg slalu pn de discussion ngn TM..
Ingtkn nk discuss psl projek ke, update ke..
Rupe2nyer nk ty ak psl kkk tuh..
Dh puas soal siasat, ak blek meje ak..
Xlme lps tuh, PM plak..
Yg nih byk encourage ak..
Die nachat spy jgn mudh trpengaruh ngn org len.. Especially senior..
ps: Cam tau2 plak ak mmg sng di-influence kn..

Lps lunch.. (hr ni lunch brdue jerk ngn PM.. huhuhu.. Jeles ka? Kiddin')
GM pggl ak msk blek die..
Ak dh start resah..
Ak de wat salah ke?
Kalo de msti TM dh bgtau kn td..
Tp ni msti bnde serius nih..
Kalo x, xkn smpai GM sndiri nk jumpe ak..

Dkt 2 jam gak la ak kne bsuh ngn GM..
Sumenyer psl kkk tuh..
Ak pn xpsti sgt pe yg die dh wat..
Pe yg ak dbritahu, kkk tuh dh kne 1st warning..
Npe?? Ntah..
Ak pn xbran nk ty lebih2..
Ak dpggl die sbb xnk ak trlibt sme n wat pe yg kkk tuh wat which I don't even know what exactly..
Since GM kte, so far prestasi ak ok..

Hhmm..
Act, ak musykil sgt..
Pe la agaknyer yg kkk tuh dh wat smpai bnde ni jd seserius nih??
Ak bru bkoba2 promote malay kt company nih..
Tup2 ni plak yg jd..
Hopefully, either senior/junior yg bkl msk, xkn repeat pe yg kkk nih wat..
Ak xnk, malay dpndg serong kt cni just bcoz of 1/2 person..

Wah, xsdr pnjg post kali nih..
I better end it now..
Lab sweden tgh tunggu ak nih..
Till next time, ja n salam..

Be patient!!

Hhmm..
Lek lok jerk dh de lg sorg kn..
Die benti plak..
Xthn kot..
Ktrg slalu gak skype..
Die slalu ngadu stress..
Xle nk wat pe la..
Just wishing her all the best..

ps: Kkk pn xthn ek.. Kalo junior tuh lg mude drpd ak, cnela agaknyer..

Can't wait for final ep!!

Tgh2 tension wat checklist.. Layn jdrama jap..
Natsu-niji ep 8-9..

Mule2 tgk ep 8, ak jd sonok giler.. Akhirnyer dorg together.. Best2.. Pttla rating tinggi.. Tp xkan semudh tu kot.. Ye r.. Sblm nih, punyela ssh prmpn tuh nk ngaku..

Ep 9.. Tgh gembire2.. Dkt2 nk last tuh.. Anak die, Umi-chan plak wat hal.. Ye r.. Taiga pn satu hal.. Sng2 jerk nk jd ayah bdk tuh kn.. Elok2 dh harmoni cm 1 family.. At last, cmni plak jdnyer..

Sedih ar.. Ak hrp citer nih happy ending.. Kalo tgk time openingnyer lagu, cm sad.. Hopefully not la.. Kbykn citer jun-kun sumenyer happy.. Yg sad slalunyer movie.. Pe yg pasti, drama ni dh pn hbs ditygkn kt jepun last monday.. Ak tgh tunggu either stormy team or refrain sub team to post out the last ep.. Leh la ak download.. Dgr citer kt dramacrazy dh de.. Tp sjk dh th pe yg blaku, xkn skali2 ak support streaming site tuh.. Mysoju pn.. Sorry for my naive decision but that's final.. Yg slh bkn site tuh pn.. Tp org2 yg xbrtgggjwb yg post vids2 kt ctu.. Kalo la dorg sedr pe yg dorg wat kn..

Kla, nk smbg wat checklist... Smbl2 dgr Yui ; Please Stay With Me.. Natsu-niji nyer OST.. Cbe r dgr.. Mesti addicted.. Huhuhu.. Till next time, ja n salam..